Whenever Pa shares with people about our plans, one of the responses he gets over and over again is surprise at how well I handle it. People think that I am just a wonderful wife who follows along behind my hubby wherever he wants to go. I always feel that I need to clarify this! I definitely am NOT all that wonderful, and have not always followed along so happily. Don’t get me wrong, my hubby is wonderful and I DO love to be with him. I actually would follow him anywhere he wanted to go, but that’s not necessarily how the Lord wants our interactions to be. If he did, he probably would have asked Pa to get a puppy instead of getting married! The Lord wants us to be unified in our vision and goals for our family.
When I think about the craziness of our lives–and I do know it does really look crazy–I realize I have to remind myself of a few things. These are things I have to remind myself of quite often, actually. Sometimes hourly!
1. God has called us to “it.” Not just Pa. Not just me. ALL of us- Mary, Laura, and baby Carrie included. Whatever and wherever the “it” is, we’re all in. We have to be. The Lord has to speak clearly to all of us, or we won’t survive. Because when things get hard, that’s what we have to cling to. “Man, this is tough, but we’re here because the Lord wants us here!”
2. As trite as it sounds, He really and truly gives us grace for it. And truly, His grace is sufficient. I could go on forever about this, but I’ll just say this. I spent the first 16 years of my life in the same small town in Kentucky. I never thought that there was any other way than, get married, have kids, buy a house, stay put. Really. The Lord definitely has given grace for me to be OK with giving that up. Most women I know yearn for the stability and dependability of that kind of life. I used to think all women had to have it. I guess the Lord is showing me otherwise.
3. I’m signing up for “hard.” Every day. A friend recently spoke at our church and she spoke about choosing hard. The Bible is full of this language. It’s called taking up your cross. Choose the difficult road. When we take the hard path, the Lord is faithful to do so much work in us. Then, when tough times really come (as in, the shakings that are coming before the Lord’s return), we’re not so accustomed to a “life of ease” that we give up on our faith and the Lord.
There are so many more thoughts rolling in my head.